外面

重新看了《如果.爱》，戏里的一首歌“外面”，我重复听了好几遍。

我曾经也有过这样的心境，那是人生中很难熬的一段日子，强烈的想要闯出去，要离开。我遇到很多挫折及阻挠，有些话，到现在回想起来，还是会刺痛我。

如果我是孙纳，我会做出一样的选择，离开林建东。如果选择留下，两个人一辈子，就会过着那种苦日子，梦想永远没有实现的那天。十年之后，回想那段爱情，又有什么是不能放弃的，没有彼此的日子，你我也不是活得好好的。

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外面的世界很精彩

我出去会不会失败

外面的世界特别慷慨

闯出去我就可以活过来

留在这里我看不到现在

我要出去寻找我的未来

下定了决心改变日子真难捱

吹熄了蜡烛愿望就是离开

外面的世界很精彩

我出去会变得可爱

外面的机会来得很快

我一定找到自己的存在

一离开头也不转不回来

我离开永远都不再回来

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路

很喜欢这张照片。那么平静的小镇，仿佛我就是镇上唯一的一个人。
前面的路，不知可通到哪里，我没有勇气自己一个人走完这条路。
也许再也没有机会回到这条路。
很多路，一辈子只会走过一次，所以更要放慢脚步，好好欣赏周围的风景。

~~2009 二月，Bartlesville, Oklahoma, 我到此一游。

期待

期待家里即将添加新的成员，

不是一个，

而是两个喔---一大一小。

请不要误会，

绝对不是买大送小。

鼻酸的感觉

心里有一个深深的遗憾，每一次回想，鼻酸的感觉总会涌上来。
身边的人，会慢慢的消失，我还要承受多少次这样的离别？

周末 29 March

天好黑喔，应该就要下雨了。一想到等一下要在这种湿湿的天气去Holland V 吃饭，就觉得很不想出门。这个周末好无聊，觉得自己快要变宅女了。

很值得一提的是，上个周末，我千里迢迢到KL去看张惠妹的演唱会。一切都太值得了，和现场一万八千个观众一起K歌，真是一个难忘的感觉。

Today is Christmas

I don't celebrate Christmas as I am not a Christian. However when I was still in Muar, every year the Santa Clause used to visit my home near Christmas day because my grandmum was a Catholic. The church caroling group would sing and dance at my home. The neighbour kids would also come.

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While in this year, I spend the whole day, at the place I stay, resting. It has been a tiring week. Recently I feel very pressurised at work as the work load is increasing. predecessor has left for field and I am the only one QC Engineer, overlooking four product lines now, in which three product lines are new and always give me problems.

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I was on business trip to Penang to visit supplier from Mon to Tue to resolve some product quality issues with supplier. And I am having conference call almost every night. Hmm...although work load is heavy, but I like the working environment and the group of colleagues I have. There is no office politics and I can focus fully in my job.

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December is a happening month... Some special events

1. Predeccesor has left...Pei Pei is now really alone to handle all the stuffs

2. Attended a Christmas Party at colleague's home

3. first time on business trip

4. Attended a one-week training

5. My Dear is going to sail with his ship

6. MAEAA successfully organised it's first activity

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Anyway I wish everyone Merry Christmas.

The third weekend of October

I was back to office this morning. The new product line is going to have production in another two weeks' time. Getting more work to do as my predecessor hands over job to me. He is going to field in December and I am supposed to take over most of the things he is doing now, plus another new product.

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These two weeks I am keep thinking whether I want to live in such a way for the rest of my life. I get a not-too-bad salary from a MNC. Most probably after 5-7 years, or maybe 10 years, I can be a manager after gaining enough experiences. I will always report to someone and rely on him/her to rate my performance. The money I have, definitely not enough to have a luxury life, but more than sufficient to get a "pigeon box" house and a japanese car...

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That is not what I hope to be. No matter how hard you work for the company, the company eventually is not belonged to you. Most of the time, they will not pay proportionately to the effort you put in.

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So I want to be my own boss. Anyway it's not going to happen soon because I have nothing now- no money, no experience. Learn as much as possible is what I can do now.

The 2nd weekend of October

Last weekend, it was great as I was able to meet 3 different groups of friends.

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Friday night, I had dinner with Jeremy and Kuan Nee. We had so much things to talk about. We shifted from the dinner place to another coffee shop and continued to chit chat till mid night. I really like these two friends whom I could share many things.

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The next day, finally the outing to East Coast Park was put into action. We spent the whole afternoon cycling in the park. That kind of activity is much more better than wandering in the shopping center or town.

On Sunday, it was reserved for my hometown friends. We had a ktv session followed by a dinner at Holland Village.

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I will never be lonely to have so many friends around me ; )

CONNECT Nanyang Photo Competition

Tyng Tze and Pei Pei won a consolation prize in the photo competition. This is the winning entry.

A new challenge

I have taken up a new challenge recently. Pei Pei becomes the President of MAE Alumni Association and she is the first lady president of the association. Today I gave my first speech as President.

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We have our first recruitment drive and it is very successful! We have almost 100% of the alumni attending the events to sign up with us as lifelong member. Even though the number is not a big figure, but it's a very encouraging outcome.

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I like to work together with a group of friends in such voluntary basis. What we do, is really for the interest of the club and our discussion is meaningful. Not like what happened in the company, where people know it's not going to be good overally but they still choose to do that because of certain reasons. And you see how people playing "taiji" to push away what they are supposed to do.

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There are a lot more things to be done to MAEAA. So I make a little advertisement here:

"For MAE alumni, pls sign up as lifelong member of MAEAA. One time membership registration fee of 10. You will definitely gain a lot of enriching experinces by joining us."